….and that’s all there is to say about that.
There were no more tears this morning. I’ve started to process the fact that it’s unlikely we’ll have our own biological baby. Donor eggs or adoption will be the way forward for us. I think I’m ok with that. The baby may not have my dimple, left handedness or bloodhound sense of smell but he/she will be loved and ours. I know I should perhaps take time out to mourn this loss but I’m a ‘doer’ and planning our next move keeps me going. If I don’t keep moving forward I’m going to turn into a blubbering wreck. I’m just so desperate for this to work out somehow. I’m 38, husband is 40 and time is not on our side.
More to follow, I’ve emailed our RE with the news. Thanks to everyone for your support and kind words x
Babyscienceproject 
Oh my dear, I’m so sorry to hear that. X
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Aw I am sorry to hear that! Im a doer and 38 too, so totally understand how you are dealing with this situation. Whatever you choose to do next will be the right thing to do and lots of hugs and strength to you. Hang in there mate! 🙂 x
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My heart goes out to you. I hope you’re able to take good care of yourself right now, and lean on each other. Keep us posted on your journey. Sending you love and light!
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I’m at a loss for words. I thought it was going to happen this time. I’m so sorry! Lots of hugs!! My heart goes out to you both! xx
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It sucks, no two ways about it. I am glad to see your heart is still open to the other options out there. My own eggs are done for and I’m just kicking off the donor egg process myself this month. You want to be a parent and you will be, it just might not look how you originally expected…and then again, so many things turn out that way. You have huge love to give, and there is a soul out there waiting to be yours 🙂
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PS – if you do decide to look at adoption, I highly recommend http://www.adoptionavenues.org/index.html. They also don’t discriminate (i.e., cancel your application) if you do end up getting pregnant 🙂
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Thank you – I will check out the link. My husband and his siblings were adopted so we’re definitely open to that. Ideally I would love to experience pregnancy and birth though, so I think we’re going to try donor eggs first. Good luck to you! We can compare notes, hopefully it will be the answer for both of us.
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Im sorry to hear your negative, you’re not out of the game yet! you’re right, they might not have your eyes or dimples, but they will have your determination, your support and your never ending love. Wish you all the luck xx
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Thank you – wise words!
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